So a week or so ago my pastor was preaching on what is you could heard God more clearly. I was so excited about hearing some great secret and was to be honest disappointed with the content, it was about Bible reading. Now his message was life changing but why did my heart sink when I heard "read your Bible to hear from God"?
So he went on to talk about how daily bible reading is a great way to hear from God, which I total agree with! But as I was in service I was thinking about when, going over my daily schedule and found part of my problem...at midnight might work, right?! So as I thought there beginning to feel frustrated, I hear a soft voice saying this is between you and Me.
Wow I have spent 30 some years felling frustrated, guilty, or undeserving and just now understand that Bible reading is not some magic formula.
As I continued my conversation with God I realized that right now, in this season of my life, one day a week really trying to hear from God in my Bible reading time is much better than hours a day doing out of guilt or with a must do this attitude. Not to say that this may not change in the future but for now I am going to live in His grace and find time to read His word once a week. (Monday during my daughter's quiet time).
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Monday, January 24, 2011
Bible reading
okay here we go, this may be the last day you read this blog but sometimes the truth hurts. I for the first time in my life I was honest about my Bible reading habits to a dear friend. Then in turn I told my husband my "new" found "wisdom" on Bible reading and this morning he is ready to write a book about this. LOL When he said that I thought I am going to very open in this blog about my Bible habits, feelings, and experiences so I will become my husband’s co author...
Bible reading is all or nothing for me and more often than not it is nothing. I do read the scripture the pastor has put on the screen on Sunday morning's if that counts and for many a moon that has counted for me. I have decided I am not alone. Many Godly men and women struggle with Bible reading. I am not a super Christian or ever claim to be one, but God still is my everything. I find Him still moving in my life, directing, challenging, and loving me even though the scriptures are not being read. Now many of you have stopped reading this and made a judgment that I am against Bible reading, quite the contrary. I was taught at a very young age that the Bible is your phone line to our God and I do believe that. So why am I not picking up the phone?
I am going to admit it is boring, overwhelming, and has not made a big impact in my life...why? I asked God. He spoke in a clear way, you have been doing it wrong and because you HAD to. I have learned as a parent if a child is doing something because they have to, it is not as effective as if they get to or want to. I have heard reading your Bible compared to eating veggies. The both make you stronger and aren't always fun to do.
I have to believe that the God who loves me and gave His Son to die for me would not make getting to know Him a difficult thing.
So I am on a journey to discover what God has for me in the Bible. I have read it through many times in my life but just because I had to. Now with eyes of a child looking at a candy jar, I am going to read His word and see what I have missed!
MORE TO COME!
Bible reading is all or nothing for me and more often than not it is nothing. I do read the scripture the pastor has put on the screen on Sunday morning's if that counts and for many a moon that has counted for me. I have decided I am not alone. Many Godly men and women struggle with Bible reading. I am not a super Christian or ever claim to be one, but God still is my everything. I find Him still moving in my life, directing, challenging, and loving me even though the scriptures are not being read. Now many of you have stopped reading this and made a judgment that I am against Bible reading, quite the contrary. I was taught at a very young age that the Bible is your phone line to our God and I do believe that. So why am I not picking up the phone?
I am going to admit it is boring, overwhelming, and has not made a big impact in my life...why? I asked God. He spoke in a clear way, you have been doing it wrong and because you HAD to. I have learned as a parent if a child is doing something because they have to, it is not as effective as if they get to or want to. I have heard reading your Bible compared to eating veggies. The both make you stronger and aren't always fun to do.
I have to believe that the God who loves me and gave His Son to die for me would not make getting to know Him a difficult thing.
So I am on a journey to discover what God has for me in the Bible. I have read it through many times in my life but just because I had to. Now with eyes of a child looking at a candy jar, I am going to read His word and see what I have missed!
MORE TO COME!
Saturday, January 22, 2011
2011
wow, it has been a long time since I have blogged, but since it is part of my 2011 goals. I am going to list the for all to see (even though no one have ever read this yet)
1.blog once a wk
2.run a 5k
3.weight (yeah that's not happening till I am closer 40lbs to go)
4.40 dates with my hubby
5. job
6. get emergency fund up to $1,000 and debit down$1,000
7. 50 top movie list with Kev
some of these are very tough and others well I need to reconnect with my family and focus less on my job.
I will update you soon
1.blog once a wk
2.run a 5k
3.weight (yeah that's not happening till I am closer 40lbs to go)
4.40 dates with my hubby
5. job
6. get emergency fund up to $1,000 and debit down$1,000
7. 50 top movie list with Kev
some of these are very tough and others well I need to reconnect with my family and focus less on my job.
I will update you soon
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