As many know my hubby is gone quite a bit for ministry. I am "holding down the fort" for the family/ministry. this is not how I pictured my life even 3 yrs ago. In this last month or two I have learned alot about myself.
I have discovered that one of the best decisions I ever made was marrying my best friend at 20 yrs old. Our relationship has helped me form into the woman of strength I am today. My relationship with God is stronger after watching my hubby's faith.
I have discovered i need a hobby :) My daughter, husband, and work has become my life and it is time to find something fun for myself!
I am not afraid. I thought that I would be fearful of being alone or alone with myself. The quiet has been one of my fears and I have conquered it.(at least for today)
I am stronger emotional, physically, and spiritually than I ever thought.
The last discovering I have made is the most important to me. God is my rock. I have have some heavy rains in my life and many this year. As the foundations have been shaken and the sand has been washed away and My Rock has remained. He is my cornerstone!
Friday, June 24, 2011
Friday, June 17, 2011
granola momma
Today we hosted a play date with a very sweet little girl. Throughout the play time I learned alot about myself. I found myself realizing things that I value and hold as a must in my daughters life.
I must have things clean and organized. I have struggled with this my whole life. I will never forget a dear friend in high school come over and shovel out my room (she is a saint for remaining my friend after that day/week). I am not perfect in this area, quite the contrary. Yet I have found I feel great relaxation and calm when everything is neat and tidy. And I am attracted to people that have a gift for tidiness (aka my hubby).
I also greatly value gratitude. I today found myself ruffled by the bluntness (not rudeness) of this little girl. I think that any sentence or request can be soften by a kind tone or polite phrase. I did not understand why I am so hard on my daughter about tone and politeness until today. "A spoon full of sugar helps the medicine go down!!" (insert tune)
Last and most surprising to me. When a year ago we decided to make a lifestyle change when it can to our health I did not see today happening. Today I felt like a granola eating, free loving, hippie mom. The little girl would not eat any of my food because it was whole grain bread, homemade mac & cheese, and weird looking carrots (she actually said "what are these?", I said, "they are fresh cut carrots"...She said "I don't eat those kind of carrots") I had no junk food to serve, no boxes to open, and felt like wow, I guess I must have really changed my lifestyle. I actually do value fresh healthy food for me and my family . Now to get those last couple lbs off and the change will be complete LOL!!!
I am striving to be better and have a long way to go. Thank you Lord for the patience with myself to make the changes I need and the wisdom to see what changes I have not yet embraced!
I first am going to say the little girl is a great girl and I did not realize all the things I am going to say because she did not do them
I must have things clean and organized. I have struggled with this my whole life. I will never forget a dear friend in high school come over and shovel out my room (she is a saint for remaining my friend after that day/week). I am not perfect in this area, quite the contrary. Yet I have found I feel great relaxation and calm when everything is neat and tidy. And I am attracted to people that have a gift for tidiness (aka my hubby).
I also greatly value gratitude. I today found myself ruffled by the bluntness (not rudeness) of this little girl. I think that any sentence or request can be soften by a kind tone or polite phrase. I did not understand why I am so hard on my daughter about tone and politeness until today. "A spoon full of sugar helps the medicine go down!!" (insert tune)
Last and most surprising to me. When a year ago we decided to make a lifestyle change when it can to our health I did not see today happening. Today I felt like a granola eating, free loving, hippie mom. The little girl would not eat any of my food because it was whole grain bread, homemade mac & cheese, and weird looking carrots (she actually said "what are these?", I said, "they are fresh cut carrots"...She said "I don't eat those kind of carrots") I had no junk food to serve, no boxes to open, and felt like wow, I guess I must have really changed my lifestyle. I actually do value fresh healthy food for me and my family . Now to get those last couple lbs off and the change will be complete LOL!!!
I am striving to be better and have a long way to go. Thank you Lord for the patience with myself to make the changes I need and the wisdom to see what changes I have not yet embraced!
I first am going to say the little girl is a great girl and I did not realize all the things I am going to say because she did not do them
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
I Am!
Just a few days till my hubby leaves for an overseas trip for almost a month. I was going into this season with lots of plans and uncertainty. As I look ahead I began to feel overwhelmed and scared until a still small voice reminded me of a great true "I am".
When I am feeling unable, I know that God has given us a promise that He is able. I am not something, I need to remember that God said I am. He is my provider, my comforter, and my all.
I know what God has called me to as my hubby goes to do ministry. My job is to make life at home as normal as possible, finding calmness in "I am" in the mist of storms (figurative ones and real one too), and praying!
I believe that when I am not something God is the I am. when I feel exhausted "I am energy and patience", when I feel anxious "I am peace", when I feel lost "I am the way and the truth", when I feel sad "I am joy".
I hope to learn all about the truth that God is my I am in every situation. Thank you Lord for your provision in every part of my and my families life. watch the blog to see what God is up to in the ministry overseas and the homefront.(I think the homefront will be exciting-LOL)
When I am feeling unable, I know that God has given us a promise that He is able. I am not something, I need to remember that God said I am. He is my provider, my comforter, and my all.
I know what God has called me to as my hubby goes to do ministry. My job is to make life at home as normal as possible, finding calmness in "I am" in the mist of storms (figurative ones and real one too), and praying!
I believe that when I am not something God is the I am. when I feel exhausted "I am energy and patience", when I feel anxious "I am peace", when I feel lost "I am the way and the truth", when I feel sad "I am joy".
I hope to learn all about the truth that God is my I am in every situation. Thank you Lord for your provision in every part of my and my families life. watch the blog to see what God is up to in the ministry overseas and the homefront.(I think the homefront will be exciting-LOL)
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